Aint Life Grand....

An update of sorts...

2006-10-12T21:11:59Z

Ok... so where to begin?
Well, that new girl in my life has fit in perfectly. We try to find time outside our work schedules to see each other, and so far its mostly weekends. That'll get better, as time goes. We're both still looking for better jobs, or should that read, looking for better suited work. We're also attending our last wedding of the year at the end of the month!
Turkey Day was terrific.. the whole weekend was. We went to 2 dinners, both of which were good, and got out for a great walk together. Got to see my brother and Heathoh.. and watched some good movies. The weekend couldn't have gone much better, really. Im very satisfied with it :)
So, you all remember a financial situation I was having.. well, its over. Finally, that whore is out of my life. I knew she was a lying bitch.. She's probably cheating on her current, who I feel sorry for. But either way, She decided not to pay the rest, so I found a few suitable ways to make up the difference :) Courts wouldn't have done any good, as I really dont want to ever see her again. But things are wrapped up!

I got a few shout outs to make... To Kerry... I miss you! Xmas Eve wont be the same without you around . Steph, Congrats on your new place, I hope everything is going wonderfully... I think thats it for now.

So, life is goin good, for a change. I guess if you don't settle, anythings possible! I hope all my people are doin great out there.. I'll drop in soon with some words.

Its official :)

2006-08-22T07:19:28Z

Well, after some not so tedious talking and an obviously visable agreement, We've made it official. She's so wonderful. She feels lucky to have me, but I think I'm the lucky one. Maybe we both are? I think that might be it. We went to Lake Echo to a BBQ with her mom on Saturday, which was very relaxing, and then we came back here for the night. We spent all Sunday napping and cuddling, and eating too. I can't believe how amazing this is.
On a more serious note, Im taking legal steps to get people out of my life who are dishonest. Most of my close friends know what I mean, and yes, its unfortunate, but... some people can't do what's right, without a little provocation.

Labor day will soon be here... just around the corner, really. I could see going to the lot, maybe? I guess I'll have to see what's up :) I cant believe how good life is going. Now, if only I could win this lottery....

Actually, I'll be ok with what I got :) I'll check back in soon, and let people know where everything is standing!

My cheeks actually hurt!

2006-08-17T07:01:18Z

Well... where to begin?
Despite a rainy day, I met up with her on Tuesday to begin what was supposed to be a night of buskers... but ended up being supper, and drinks with some others. I didnt drink... I dont need to, this girl has me on a high already. I've never felt like this. So much is going on inside me, thaty I've never had all at once, or this fast. We're completely in tune with each other.. I feel a little crazy about it all... I mean, we haven't known each other a week. We arent officially anything yet, either. But no one watching would know! I can't believe that life just jumped like this. Im sure some people have a lot of questions about her, and I will answer them all, as it goes. But now... Im enjoying the happiness.

Im looking to start something else new in life, sometime soon, as well. I have a lot to do, and it's daunting... but I think Im getting the sign I have to make another move. Time will tell how it all goes.

On the music front, I'm working on a few pieces that take a little out of me, but hopefully my next electronic piece will find my sound once again.
I think myluck will pick up there, as it seems to be everywhere else. One can hope!

WOW.

2006-08-13T06:05:24Z

OK, Stephens wedding went terrific.... no hitches, at all. But as much as I'd like to discuss the wedding, I have to talk about what really made the night go.. my "date".

After the wedding, we stayed up all night, tho tired, And talked.. about everything. There's an instant connection there, one I've never felt. And it makes me happy, it seems :)

We also went to the buskers tonight, and ended up walkin around the city, talking, and just enjoying each other. I dont know what to say about it, but...Wow. I hope this is something good for me. Time will tell!

slyargo @ 2006-07-31T13:26:00

2006-07-31T16:38:32Z

Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List Five facts, Three births and Three deaths in your journal, including the year:

EVENTS

1649 - King Charles I of England is beheaded.
1889 - Archduke Crown Prince Rudolf of Austria, heir to the Austro-Hungarian crown, was found dead with his mistress Baroness Mary Vetsera in Mayerling. How they died remains a mystery.
1979 - Varig 707-323C freighter, flewn by the same commander of Flight 820, disappears over the ocean 30 minutes after taking off from Tokyo. (this happened the day I was actually born)
1948 - Indian pacifist and leader Mohandas Gandhi is assassinated by Nathuram Godse, a Hindu extremist.
1945 - The Wilhelm Gustloff, overfilled with refugees, sinks in the Baltic Sea after being torpedoed by a Soviet submarine, leading to the deadliest maritime disaster in known history, killing roughly 9,000 people.

BIRTHS
1882 - Franklin D. Roosevelt, 32nd. President of the United States (d. 1945)
1974 - Christian Bale, British actor
1951 - Phil Collins, English musician

DEATHS
1181 - Emperor Takakura of Japan (b. 1161)
1951 - Ferdinand Porsche, Austrian automotive engineer (b. 1875)
1649 - King Charles I of England (executed) (b. 1600)

Did I call it or what?

2006-07-24T07:17:24Z

For general information...

Im not worth anyones time. If you have a use for me, come and get it. I can no longer stave off my sense of worthlessness. To all those who really care, I appreciate that you dont think this way, but its true. I wish there was more I could say. Maybe it's too late, and I've messed up this life beyond fixing. If so, Im sorry to disappoint. For the record.. .Im glad everyone is happy, at least. I guess I gotta be miserable in order for others to have it good. I think it's worth it, though. At least thats something...

I wish I could go back and change where I missed out.

Sins! YES!

2006-07-20T04:14:06Z

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	High
Envy:	High
Lust:	High
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

OK, Well, there you have it.. I'm inhuman. Not much to say. Life still sucks... still confusing... I'll see what happens tho. Not much else to do....

Blah...

2006-07-19T03:48:23Z

Blah is the word I've chosen for now.
I think I'm starting to realize I'm not only vastly different from others, but that I'm not meant to have a "life" per se. I don't think I'll ever be able to have another relationship... I don't think there's anything in the world important enough to be here for. I don't think anyone else will ever understand that some of us just don't fit in here.. that some of us are made different. I don't think I have feelings like people do. I don't see myself as anything better... I just see myself as belonging elsewhere - Another time, another place... I'm not certain which. But I feel like there's nothing I want to do to change this. It's a little lonely, knowing everyone else is on the verge of a happiness, and I won't find it. Maybe it's time for me to leave emotion behind. Heh... yeh, thats easy.

Who wants to bet my next post will be the same as this?

A Meme... whatever the hell that means.

2006-07-14T00:45:36Z

This thing was cool, I guess. I still suck tho.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (I always miss someone, and its always the same person.)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (Replaced with movies.)	✓ I own lots of books. (own, yes... read, not at all.)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games. (Xmas Wrestlefests rule!)	✓ I've tried marijuana. (does it count if you're drunk?)
✓ I've watched porn movies. (Anyone who says no, is lying.)	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (I've been a psycho everything. I'm much more the quiet miserable one now.)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (Brutal honesty.)
✓ I curse sometimes. (curses are fun.)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (If this means emotionally...)	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

✓ I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (namely all times.)	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	× I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast. (no, but I get things confused a lot.)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. (Im fortunate there.)
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (JUST outside.)	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (Im sure I've kept things, but not lied.)	✓ I am usually pessimistic. (Im a realist. The world sees me as a pessimist.)
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (Someone tell me what it is.)	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends. (one of my few fortunes.)
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (I do. I cant help it.)	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
× I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before. (I have. I dont regret it, but I dont feel good about it either.)
✓ I currently like/love someone. (I like a lot of people, I think. Love is something.. different.)	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (I dont even know how long I want the rest to be.)	✓ I want to have children in the future. (Mybe in my next life.)
✓ I have changed a diaper before. (Long, long ago...)	✓ I've called the cops on a friend before. (At that point, the friejndship was over.)	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn. (Who doesnt.)	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (Once, because it meant something.)
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends. (Some of them.)	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (And for the costumes.)	✓ I have dated a close friend's ex. (not often.)	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am. (I do, but politics is a human invention, not a feeling.)	✓ I am punk rockish. (I can be.)	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (not so much plan on, but... it'll happen.)	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (I prefer the term enjoy playing.)
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (Too often. Still.)
✓ I fall for the worst people. (With an exception.)	✓ I adore bright colours. (I can see them.)	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (Or by mistake.)	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (And fail miserably.)	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (At least.)	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. (of a sort.)	✓ I am ambidextrous. (in certain endeavours, but not completely.)
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	✓ I have terrible teeth. (yes, I can chew steel with them. they are horrifyingly powerful.)
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (Exactly.)	✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (Probably. But the internet does happen in real life.)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business. (perhaps someday.)	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. (unfortunately.)
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (Im sensitive. I think its human.)	✓ I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (not so much firearms, but forearms? lol)
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (yeh, often.)	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds. (And wasting my life doing it.)
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. (when I have it.)	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. (This is fact. I am a prick. But if I was happy, I wouldnt be.)	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (Sometimes. But if people knew why Im good at what I am good at doing, they would wonder whats wrong with me.)
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language. (I speak bits of a few. And Im adding to it.)	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	✓ I like reading fact more than fiction. (if I have to read at all.)	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings. (just scars.)	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (Everyday, I wonder why Im back here, with nothing.)	✓ I like most animals better than most people. (Especially cats.)
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles. (not by choice!)	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
✓ I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to. (My life does that. not forgot... omitted.)
✓ I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. (Last Samurai Soundtrack reminds me of a good life.)	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me. (I wear my necklace/chain.)	✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. (Sometimes, on social occasions.)	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. (Yeh, thats me. liking the wrong things.)
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (It wouldnt be the worst death.)	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. (This would help us find the right people.)	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing. (why, I dont know.)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	✓ I have a custom-built computer. (It is now.)	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (Yeh, I probably do.)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it. (I am Irish, I just dont love it.)	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (Half and half?)	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (Every minute.)	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough. (I have no goals.)
× I need more time to myself. (I need LESS time to myself.)	× I wish I was more open-minded.	✓ I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (If my hair went grey, it means I'd have hair. I'd like that.)
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out. (I do sometimes.)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare. (No one plays it much.)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (Quite the opposite.)	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

I'll write about life later.

Now, thats pretty damn accurate....

2006-06-14T06:59:31Z

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.8
Mind:	5.1
Body:	6.5
Spirit:	5.4
Friends/Family:	3.2
Love:	1.4
Finance:	1.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Wow, eh? Who woulda thought that! Ah well. Life is putting along slowly. I'm not sure what I want, or where I want everything to go now, and I can't say I really care. But there it is. I guess I'll just... wait and see how this next month goes.

Profanity Alert....

2006-06-06T00:15:14Z

Lets make this crystal first.... I'm not better than anyone. In fact, the whole point of writing this is because I'm not. People probably think Im generally messed up, and not very good at life in general. I agree, that's true... and I make mistakes, often. And I know it. So, why do I have to zing the majority here then?
Well, as it seems... People assume that because one admits to their mistakes, they are the only ones making them. People cant own up to what they do. No one is responsible for what they say, or how they act anymore. This covers a wide range, including, but not exclusively, Sluts, players, bitches, assholes, and backstabbers... What the fuck is all your problems? Why do sluts have to have everything around them? They fuck everyone, they lie about what they say, and the often hurt friends by interfering. Players do the same.. these guys who don't care who they hurt, as long as they get what they want, for as long as it suits them... And why do people get angry, or even sad, and not own up to it.. they can admit it, but they dont take any steps to make it easier on themselves. For fucks sake, people, admit you've done or felt what you have. and do something to drop it... I make mistakes, yes... but I own up to them. I try to rectify the situation I've been a partial catalyst to, and legitimately care. I've said the wrong things... I've been angrier than I should be, I've been out of line... but at least I can apologize to those I care about, and let it go if its not important... And if it is important, I dont pretend it was nothing. So many fucking people out there, and what do they care about? Either how they feel, or, what they want. And these can change one second to the next.... So, am I flawless? Hardly, But I admit my mistakes, and try to make the best of it. So, whats all you fuckers excuses? I sure hope some of you can accept responsibility for getting carried away with yourselves.
In closing, if you dont care, tell someone straight up, so they know the nature of your character... if you gotta be bitchy, let it go before it turns to hate.... if you want to stab your friends, stab them to their faces, and face the music knowing you've caused the situation.

A rare update..

2006-05-15T15:48:43Z

Well, after a while of being sick, and things going not so hot, I'm back! In the exciting world of music, Mark and I have gotten airplay confirmed for the radio show. We also have the studio all summer for the album, if we so choose to finish it, as well as a plethora of talented artists to work with. I think we'll have some fun with this.
So, the 5 weddings may be down to 4 now, and tho I have no dates for any, they still all sound to be good times. Shelly stopped by personally with her invite (all the way from Alberta) which was pretty cool... I hope I get some trips in this year too, not just a few weddings. There really isn't a lot of people around anymore, but its all ok, its to my liking... I get to talk to the important people, at least... went to see MI3 for the screening, it wasnt too bad, really, for a pure action flick. Other than that.... I really dont have much more to add - my life isn't exciting or fun like most other peoples, and I'm ok with that. Anyway, I'll try to update more.